She’s always been one to keep her private life as private as possible, but in the latest issue of British GQ, Nicole Kidman opens up more than usual.

The “Australia” actress discusses all the different types of love that she’s experienced.

She says, “I’ve explored obsession. I’ve explored loss and love in terms of being in a grief-stricken place, I’ve explored strange sexual fetish stuff, I’ve explored the mundane aspect of marriage, and monogamy.”

However, when asked about her split with Tom Cruise, the 42-year-old went back to being tight lipped and said, “I want to honor that marriage for what it was, and there is nothing I would go into about that. I have never discussed the intricacies of it and I never will.

Kidman also told GQ that she set fire to her early diaries after marrying Keith Urban.